Color and Light

Posted by on May 1, 2017 in Sandy's blog posts | 1 comment

Color and Light

Praise the Lord and hallelujah. I hear music. I hear the Beach Boys. Music, like light and color, cannot be held, or understood, except by and through the living evidence of it. We hear it, we see it, we know it directly. Yet, it is impossible to explain. Impossible to know, until you see, hear, feel and know it — Ah, yes, such is life —   and such is love.  Dear life.  Sweet love. So much wonder and beauty here, in the world. Yes, I love you. Having the soul of an artist I am captivated by color. There is something about light and color that speaks to me. I am fascinated by color. Perhaps because this world is made light; light and music the essence of life. True. So, let’s talk color for a moment. All things appearing to be solid, and yet they are as chimerical as a rainbow. As illusory as an illumined mirage in the sands of the Mojave Desert. This entire world is like a radiant spectrum cast upon the wall, projected by the faceted prisms of a beveled glass window. I’m in love, I’m caught in the infrared, slipping through the ultraviolet, captivated by the seen and unseen. It is my heart that catches the sunbeam’s ray and feels its beauty. Life, sweet life,  life is music and dancing colors, nothing more than this and yet so rich and real and living. It is a love song that I cannot hold, but I can know it as assuredly as I know love is. A color is impossible to grasp. What is it? It is here, I see it. It is Light that I see, all shining, glimmering. It’s in me, in my eyes.  It is me, it touches my soul with such sweet laughter and joy. How do we know what music is, except to hear it. To hear it is to know it, to know it is to be it. Life is the evidence of Love. What is this world that is appearing before my eyes? It is visible and yet intangible, ephemeral. Like beauty, like love, like music and color – all Life – all that I am. I am swept away with this sweet world. This vision of my very self leaves me unbound, alive, feeling everything. Pinks and azures arrive in the evening sunset, unbidden, seeping out of the magic of Life. I am in love with this seducing beauty of my open and fearless heart. Love forever...

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Just Curious

Posted by on May 1, 2017 in Sandy's blog posts | 2 comments

Just Curious

Just curious. From the perspective of love and beauty, do you worry about the state of the world, climate change? Or do you rest in knowing that all is taken care of? I love curiosity.  So thank you for the question.  I think the short answer would be that I rest in knowing that all is taken care of. The longer answer is going to trample all over the simple  beauty and love I prefer to share – but, I’ll give it a try anyway. My words come from  the love and beauty of Reality I see. Reality just makes it easy to fall in love with the world. I’ve fallen in love with everything. Seeing what is Real lets me rest in here in this world. Oh my, how I do love Life and my world. When we discover Reality, we become fearless.  When fear is gone, love just pours through everything. When love is pouring through everything, then everything is beautiful. When we know who we really are, we know what Real really is, what Reality means. That’s freedom. We are no longer slaves to matter. The basis of Life is spirit, not matter – seeing this, we are no longer subject to fear. Without fear the heart is wide open and truly at peace. Here, being open and fearless, we know what Love is, and we live it. It is the very life of us, the divine river of our self, and it flows with us, through us, as us. This sweet light of love is in our eyes, in our heart, and in our soul. It is us.  And we see that state of beauty we are, reflected in the world around us. Being fearless, life and all the bumps and falls, become so much easier. We are in love with it all. Now we know and know we know. We see the beauty we be. It is all that is. Liberating. The material world no longer holds any power over us. No longer giving the value to matter or things, we are no longer subjects, subservient to any system that controls by way of fear. We come home to our self. We are the authority for ourself alone.  Nothing, nothing is more wonderful nor more liberating or powerful than this. We make our own Self discovery.  We know who we are, once we find Reality. We find dominion. We know for our selves what Reality is and we live it here in the world. We know it, because we are living it.  What is Real delineates all the marvelous wonders and beauty pointing to the Real.  The Real stands ever present, unharmed, changeless and perfect.  Such sweet freedom this is. We are now completely embracing this Life we are.  We are filled with love, we are in love with the whole entire thing called life, no matter whatever label it goes by, all of it is God;  the good, the bad, the bumps, and losses, all of it, entirely  – it is simply divine. Or as the basic idea goes – and it is true-  God is All – and all means all.  No exceptions. This turns out to be absolutely true. But, you have to prove it and know for yourself. Yes, so that is my joy and...

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Evening Sky

Posted by on Apr 29, 2017 in Sandy's blog posts | 1 comment

Evening Sky

The planets soar above, spinning wonder through my mind. This love I am, it shines the golden sun low in the sky. Dancing shadows swing and sway to life’s joyful rhythms. I hear the ocean waters sing to me. My feet feeling the wet sandy shore. Waves lullaby, that sweet sound. The sparkling light, here in my eyes, a world of love, as the sun goes down. Here she is, she is my heart, she is the little girl of me, so free and full of life – and she lives again. There is beauty in this childlike purity, this pristine soul of myself. She sees there is Light in all things. There is the love that never leaves or forsakes us. This love seen as God’s living world of all manner of things.  It’s all God’s. I see with the heart of this Child of God. She knows, living this divine presence, here, being all that is. I have lived it, I have proven it true for myself. You can too. This is the song in my heart. This infinite Light is the wind, the trees, the evening’s melody, the love song of all that I am – all that you are. My sweet joy stands upon this discovery, this recovery of my very own undying Identity. The same Life and Light I am, is the Light and Life you are. How much closer to you could I be, than this. This. With the heart and mind of this tender, childlike wonder that has been uncovered, now, I am back in the world, I am charmed and touched by the cabaret of Life, this wondrous love story. It is a musical, a very good musical, full of adventure, sometimes a romping comedy. Sometimes a passionate, tender, romantic musical. Beloved song of life. Tonight I see this deific leaping light, eternal light of love, painting images in this kaleidoscope of swirling brilliance. And yes, it is always about Love, always. Our very Identity is Love Itself. Love is who and what we are. Love is not something we must do for others or others for us. No. The sunshine, the warm sunset light, the sound of the sea, the waves, seagull flying above, and this carefree beauty I am, the smile you are, none of these have to do a thing in order to be what is – because Love Itself is this Identity.  I am standing under this raining radiance of sparkling laughter, it sprinkles lightly down on me, sweeps me away into colors of bliss. All this wild, untamed beauty; God’s joy, lifts my heart in fearless love. Arms wrapped, moving close, hearts colliding, this world of myself, of you –  beauty feeling love’s warm breaths softly moving as one. Love always...

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Nothing Complicated

Posted by on Apr 28, 2017 in Sandy's blog posts | 3 comments

Nothing Complicated

I’ve come down the stairway and walk into this grand ballroom of scintillating jewels and fabrics, softly glowing silks, deep purples and radiant golds. I’m here to give it all away. It’s just too wild and wonderful, this world. It is a rollicking festival of the divine, I hear the music of God. This is the living, spinning, shimmering word of God. My heart, a glowing red ruby inferno, unrelenting. Yes, my heart will go on. You and I, ablaze in the flames of this holiness, lit by the sweet sounds of laughter. We are setting it all afire like playful pyromaniacs of love. I want to hold you in my arms and let you fall open into the soft depth me. I am not afraid. I love this world of mine. I am maintaining this simple, credulous sensitivity with the courage of my welcoming heart. In the light of this love, I see you as bright as Venus on a starry night.  I see the energy of your passion shining through the eternity in your eyes. I love your beauty. That’s all. I just simply love your earthly, glorious, crazy ways.  It’s nothing complicated. My strange and wondrous world, you have taken me. Very often, startling  me in those winsome ways you are.  I love how your moves are sometimes capricious.   You can change with such rapid motion.  Life, you allure me. Life, you call to me and I come.  I want to be embraced by your heavenly, succulent beauty.  I want to make love to this whole wild world.  You are the sparkling sunshine of my very own soul. I drink it up like a Chateau Margaux 1982. Ah, yes, sweet memories. My husband used to say “Here beautiful, this Margaux is for you. It’s perfection. They made it especially for you.” His smile, his bow lips, I adored. Oh and indeed he was right. To savor it, sip it, taste it, twirl it, feel it’s sweet warmth fill me with pleasure as it would unbind me.  My beauty exposed in the glowing heat of love. Now I am in love with my whole sweet world. Yes, I’ve become intoxicated, fearless, merging my heart with Life. Now I laugh in delight as this experience of time over flows with such wonder and mystery. Ever my love. I am invited in for more. I accept the offer. This world surprised me. Completely taken off guard, I am enchanted. Yes, I know. I now see that I descended a stairway from heaven that led me into this captivating mystery and a world of such exquisite treasures. I couldn’t refuse this gift of love. I am comfortable in the familiar celestial realms of light and spirit, I know the unseen wonders. I know the mystery well.  I know that world. That’s easy. It is this world, here, now, this magical place of things, time and matter that intrigues me so much.  It is infused with that infinite Love. Yes, it’s here, all here in this world, it shines with the Light Divine.  The wedding between heaven and earth has taken place. The wine is served. The cake enjoyed.  The holy bridal chamber entered.  Let us drink from this holy grail of everlasting Life. I love you always, and longer if I...

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Always Was

Posted by on Apr 16, 2017 in Sandy's blog posts | 2 comments

Always Was

The Light is eternal. There is an immeasurable Light beyond this limited light. This unseen, limitless Light is the Light that is Life – and Life has no opposite. It is All. It is a Light that has no beginning, and therefore no end. The Light that always was and forever will be. This Light of Life cannot die.   Life is the livingness of Love. My one true love. Life does not exist without Love. Light is Real, it is the Reality being all things. Reality is seen as the evidence of all things. The Real that stands behind the evidence is changeless.  This is Love. Love and beauty are eternal. Easter is a celebration to remind us that Love never dies. Spring time comes and the garden blooms again.  We are love. We tell the stories of the resurrection of Life, the return of Light, of being born again, forever we live as the Living One. We shine bright, we smile, we laugh, we love. Everyday we awaken to this unchanging beauty of our own heart. We rise and shine knowing the Light we are. Yes, the Light we live is come, is here, is already the being of who we are. No matter how things might appear, we know the joy of spring, we know the Light of Life is the Love we are. We live with our heart wide open to the Joy of Life. Here is our knowing Light within us — and we look out and see the evidence of this Love. It all blooms new, comes back to life and lives again. Beauty never ceases to exist. The beauty I see, is the beauty I be, reflections of my infinity – this beautiful, wild, untamed heart of...

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Dare I Say

Posted by on Apr 15, 2017 in Sandy's blog posts | 0 comments

Dare I Say

I have a very zany way of looking at Life. This keeps me afloat, buoyant, steady and true. Something about seeing it all with an eye of whimsy and joy. I don’t know why I always tend toward humor, but I will say, it certainly keeps me filled with love and the ability to live with my heart wide open to this sweet adventure of Life. It is my strange take on things, my childlike inability to get too serious. Somewhere in this amusement is where God is. For me, it is. It’s sort of like being in 1st grade and my wanting to giggle at the protocol I was supposed to submit to. I do think God loves me for this little non-compliant spark in me. Oh well, yes, even as the world is on the verge of imploding, dare I say, I think it’s funny.  I say it’s funny because it’s an inside job, the corrupt desire to control others and the world is exactly how they destroy themselves – only themselves.  And I certainly won’t buy into the fear that the pharisee wish to lord over the spellbound masses.  It’s always been this way, as far as I can see. And I can see pretty far. So, here I am, I am still that little girl, she just cannot abide the conventional restraints of the ‘old man’s’ limited, contrived, ignorant, ridged view of the world. Here is the delight though, it is that, to see the irony in this insanity is also to see the sweet wonder and beauty and the divine of it all. Sweet Life. I know, that seems incongruous, but it’s really not.  And it’s truly joyful to know this unrestrained beauty that is clear and evident —  that’s what makes me smile.  This transcendent peace and light keeps my heart filled with happiness and yes, laughter. Well, really, there is this strange amusement in it all. I’ll just have to do this my way, thankful that I found this place, this holy haven of an abiding Love within me – and all it’s wonders – wonders that never leave or forsake me. Love forever...

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Tenderly

Posted by on Apr 9, 2017 in Sandy's blog posts | 2 comments

Tenderly

Growing up in my parents home, we had this intercom sound system. My dad had that bohemian aura about him. He was an artist, worked in the film industry, photography, movies, style, beauty, nature, the senses highly attuned to life and love. He would play his smooth music on the turn-table hi-fi system – It was cool – an intercom with the radio connected to it – and KPFK would be the staple piped in. Alan Watts among the voices heard. My memories of my home as a child are really wonderful. As it should be for all of us. I carried that Love into my whole life. I can feel the peace and security there.Those dark cork floors and that big open-hearth fireplace, and the music. I inherited many wonderful gifts from both of my parents. Among these gifts came this marvelous telepathy that still looms around me in my life. I’ve learned I can trust it. It’s always right, never failed me yet. I was thinking about how love really is tender. It is a gentle thing. It has nothing to do with force or control or as my friend William Samuel said, love is not coercion – and certainly love is not war. , That word ‘tenderly’ evoked this old song that came singing inside me this morning. It was one of my dad’s favorites, played on that very elegant music system hidden neatly on a shelf behind doors. So, listening to my intuition, I’m happy to be playing this old Rosemary Clooney tune for my dad and for us all, today. It’s my contribution to the war effort, said with a giggle and a smile.  This really is a great song – Thank you all my loves – Life is so very beautiful, and I’ll love softly, tenderly and easy –...

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Star of Wonder

Posted by on Apr 8, 2017 in Sandy's blog posts | 1 comment

Star of Wonder

I’m living the story of the three wise men. I’m following my guiding star.  I’m taking a trip back to my own inner star of Bethlehem.  I am the holy trinity, the three caballeros,  the musketeers. I am the three that one.  I am a measure of limited light here in the world of time-space- matter. I am the awareness that perceives this limited light within itself.  And beyond this, is the one being it all, the full measure of illimitable Light.  All three wed to one another. The three that are one. A Trinity as the very Life-I-Am living and I’m right here in the middle.  Three in one. I think some guy named an oil after this liberating insight. The perfect mix and combination of Love. Oil, anointing, funny. Life really is a divine comedy.  And to my complete joy, God has such a great sense of humor. None of this trip is to be taken too seriously, and yes, thank God for that. That’s not just by chance, no it’s not – and yes, God makes me smile. Here it is. Right here within us, Life itself.  This inner Light is residing, ever so steady and true. Here, within us is this powerful beam of glorious light, so bright. Now it’s guiding me through this world. And it keeps me laughing while traveling alone out here on the road. How beautiful it is. I’m being shown the way. I am the three wise men, I am the holy trinity. We are following the star and we cannot get lost.  Not now. Not now. It is my compass leading me through the deserts, the hills, the valleys, the vast, and  sometimes stormy, sea of life. Here, right here, I came to this simple, sweet manger in my own heart. This little town of Bethlehem, right here inside myself.  Here, I found the pure Child, born to myself.  Here I live, vulnerable, unrestricted, and fearless, full of laughter and the sweet tears of love. I’m unbeholden to the ways the world. It’s not up to me to fix any of it. I do see the reason. And I find the humor of it all. I thank God, yes and I do. True, I’m not inclined to be systematic nor bound to convention, or caught in the limits of the intellect.  This Child heart of mine is fully alive to the dynamic beauty of this mystery.  She’s agile, responsive and flexible to the events and circumstances along this road. It’s the push and pull of the road, the friction, going up against the rough stuff. Friction is needed to keep us going. Nothing is inert. No, it’s all moving, in perpetual motion — while yet, all the while, I am still here in this steady, immutable presence of my entire being. It’s all Love, no matter which way I go. Oh, I know, to see this is not by accident, or luck – no, I’ve seen something holy, something extraordinary, mysterious. I am quite aware of this morning light, this dawning of the first star pointing me to the divine wonder I am. I’m here at the edge of an exquisite dawn. All this beauty I see is the very beauty I be.    This makes it easy. In this temperance and peace I am caring for my...

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Blooms

Posted by on Apr 3, 2017 in Sandy's blog posts | 7 comments

Blooms

So, my nice little Mac lap-top stopped working. And for 4 days I was without the internet. I played music, and I painted. Oh, and yes, I cleaned the house. That was nice. Here is the painting I did. And I wrote a little sort of something. Here it is: I am impulsive and optimistic. That combination can be a bit dangerous you would think. But, has not been so for me. I get excited and leap, believing the best will be. Low and behold, the best always is– it’s not failed me yet. And I’ve got a lot of years into this. All circumstances, meetings, occurrences in our lives are always for something Good. You do have to look for it though. Sometimes it is hiding, sometimes it takes some time to find it. But you can find it, if you want to. Looking for Good is really just another way of finding the Truth. The Truth is the Pure Light beyond time and space and matter, but the Truth contains all space and matter, you and me. Finding the Truth is the reason we are all here in this world experience. We are here to uncover, or reveal for our self, the Goodness that is right here standing behind everything. There is Light and Beauty in all things. It is always here. Of course it is. Because this Living Light includes all that is. You can find it coming and going, either way, it remains Good. This Ineffable Isness that is being everything, does not have an opposite to Itself. Even the shadow leads to the tree. So shadow is Good. Well, I have been able to find Good in all things. If I can do it, any one can. And the wonders and the joy that transpire when we do this, are pure magic, absolutely divine. For me, it has become the only way. Now this steady stream of Love and Power sustains me. And so, that is what I will do, I let this stream pour out into my world. I can’t see much else to live for but to Love. Love, seems to me, to be the only reason I am here. So, there you go, I’ll do what I do – and I love...

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Scent of Jasmine

Posted by on Mar 29, 2017 in Sandy's blog posts | 0 comments

Scent of Jasmine

A soft warm and gentle breeze blows through this balmy night, immersing me in an air of nectarous scent wafting in the sweetest pleasure. I’m bathed in mystery’s exotic midnight breath filled with perfumed fragrance exhaled by the night-blooming jasmine outside my bedroom window. Heavenly blossoms of precious ambrosial ambiance awakened by the darkness tenderly lulling me softly to sleep, to dream the story of your...

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