Special Angels

Special Angels

I love this painting. How divine, how enchanting and fervid this is. I was talking to my friend about angels. “Do I believe in angles?” She asked. “Yes, yes, I do.” I replied “I’ve heard the angelic choir of angels sining.” –  And that is true.  Oh my, yes, the glory of how exquisite it is to hear them sing.  I have heard the thunder and power of that sound and it still reverberates in my soul. I was there. The sound is beyond even the finest earthly choir you’ve ever heard. It’s truly divine, sublime and extraordinary. This chosen bunch of angels, their sound is a vibration that keeps us all safe. Their hallowed voices protect this world of ours.  The sound surrounds the night and keeps the principalities weak and powerless.  These singing angels are real, they are eternal and their song is everlasting. And I have angels with me. I think perhaps those are the cherubim and seraphim, guiding us back home, back to our self.  These angels can be charming, playful, and sensual too. A bit like Cupid, they love being in this world. They love to hear our laughter and they love showing us the sweet wonders of this life. They are here, telling us to trust our own heart, that we have the power within us. And then, of course some angels are real-life people. Not perfect people, but genuine, brokenhearted, sensitive, brave, beautiful people. These are the ones who touch us deeply and change our life for the better. Maybe this painting is of those kinds of angels. Because when we are open and exposed, baring our soul and in love with life, letting life take us, then the human angels show up, and bring us just what we need for the time. We are living in heaven, even when we don’t see it or feel it’s presence. It is right here. When my heart is open, I see it and the whole world around me shines with love, beauty, peace, joy, laughter. We are able to fly. Every child knows this deep in the heart. One day when that child’s knowing is unharnessed and set free, then we will fly. When we have become so light, like the air, like the breeze, free and blowing in the wind, we will lift our arms and up we go, flying high. Sometimes – like this painting –  that flying high, that soaring happens between two people, dancing together, heart to heart, in love. Yes, it can happen like that.  He takes you in his arms, pulls you in and you are both flying through the breath of love. Yes, it happens. Love takes us higher, there is no doubt about that. So we let love hold us. We let this unlimited Love that has created this world, we let It lead us. We let the angels watch over us. In love, the two us dance to the sounds of this unbound song of life that we hear, right here on earth. And in the arms of an angel, I am fearless and enchanted, I am embraced by the sensual, sweet, tender, magical beauty of you and me, of life and its timeless...

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It’s About Living

It’s About Living

I’ve always wondered why there is such adoration and worship of statues. Personally, I don’t mind statues, but they don’t light my fire.  However I see no reason the tear them down either.  They can be lovely works of art.  Symbols of history, events and ideas shouldn’t be destroyed intentionally, no matter how bad those ideas or history might be. Remember when those angry attackers who blew up the giant ancient Buddhas carved into the hills of Afghanistan? Useless destruction. It didn’t change anyone’s heart or mind. But it was sad and it was wrong. We all knew that. I like symbols. We are living an unfolding story. A story about identity, about who we are and who we are not.  It is telling us about our divine inheritance and love.  I like the symbols that are pointing us back to ourself in some way, back to a discovery of our own soul, our divine intelligence and inner authority. It is in there, a real power, a joyfulness and understanding – it’s in the heart of us. The Taliban destroyed those giant Buddhas because they represented ideas the oppressors didn’t like. Well, so the statues in the south represent ideas that not many of us like.  But they still have the right to stand. People can make up their own mind what they think. Everyone has the right to think what he wants to think. But destruction, hate and trying to hide history, solves nothing.  I have no desire to worship a statue. I know who I am. I know there is something divine in the very fact that I live, that I exist. I’m not going to bow down or follow anyone, real or statue.   In truth, it is the Light of Life, the spirit of knowing this genuine power of love is intrinsic in the heart of us. Divine intelligence lives as the very presence of who and what we are, because we are.  You are Life itself, and It is eternally being you.  It’s yours, because you are here, you exist. Of this, there is no doubt. Your authority is between yourself and your own heart.  It belongs only to you. No one can take that from you. No statue destroyed can harm what is eternal and real. Wouldn’t it be wonderful if all those people who are so lost and angry and tearing things down, if they saw their own beauty and wonder and divinity.  That revelation would drop them to their knees, filled with the recognition of their own profound beauty and infinite love. At that insight, they would find ways to do the right thing. You are living. You have all you need to know, within you, already. Ask yourself. No one else can give you what you already have. Be true to your own heart. It’s between you and God. That’s all. There is no power or authority in some carved stone figure. That statue cannot sing, dance, imagine, speak, write, love, think, laugh, wonder, delight, taste, eat, drink, feel the wonder and beauty of Life — and soar over the rainbows the way you can. No one but you. Always you. No one else can live this tender love you are.  Only...

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All Possibilities

All Possibilities

There is a perfect Balance between duality and non-duality. There is a way of balance between the changing, ongoing images of this time-space tangible world and the Living Light of the unseen, changeless, Divine Principle, that stands behind all things. Living this Balance, is an inner knowing that keeps us steady, true, strong and agile. It is an ease and a dominion within us. It is the perfect center within ourself. We know it when we find it. It is ours. And it is real. Dominion comes with the Balance. The Balance is a sweet place within, where the heart and soul come together.  Here, between the known and the unknown, Something real, pure, unconditioned is found. It is the Child, our original self.  The Child is the Balance. How do we come to know this marvelous sense of Balance, and know we know it? How else, but by living the imbalance – for a time. Just as it was when we were children learning to ride a bike; We got on our little bike and at first we kept falling over, unstable, unsure, wobbly and afraid. But, we kept at it. It was the imbalance that told us there is a balance. It was the falling over, that got us back on the bike. We struggled with the peddles, the speed, holding on too tight to the handlebars. The components of the dynamic were, at first, all separate and not working together. But soon, soon, it would happen. And it did. It happened.  For a moment, we felt it, we knew it. The heart shouted “Yes, yes, that’s it!” We felt the balance, for a flash of moment, we felt the ease, the glide, the sensation of balance. It was there, it was wonderful and we knew what it was. We knew what it was–so we kept going. The fear vanished and love bubbled up into laughter and delight. We began to feel it for longer moments. Then, suddenly, it was ours, all ours. Now it was easy, we got it. We were free. And the profound thing is that once we got it, then it made no difference to us whether we slid in the sand or hit a curb–we actually enjoyed the bumps, we would seek out the rocky terrain, the steep hills. The whole adventure of riding around became joyful — skidding, spinners, wheelies, cruising the streets and down paths through the park. We could enjoy the sights and sounds and beauty, looking around, it’s all beauty, fun and easy. The balance was ours, all ours, we owned it. We could ride along, playing, laughing, enjoying our friends, carefree and happy. We had the sunshine, the day, the fun, the shadows and the flickering sunlight through the trees. We had it all. Nothing could stop us now. With Life, it is the same.  We find this Balance between this tangible world of multiplicity, matter, time and change –  and the intangible knowing, the innate realization and understanding of the oneness of all things. We don’t leave out any part of this Life. It includes all possibilities.  And we certainly don’t leave ourself out of this Equation. I would say, we are the center, the link, the interface between spirit and matter. Perhaps the divine conduit that makes it all possible. Yes, it is real, it is liberating and marvelous. In the middle of duality and non-duality, we find this third, all inclusive piece of the divine Equation. It fits perfectly and it works like magic. We are given this inner authority, we know it, all by ourself. It proves itself...

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The Beach

The Beach

Years ago, this path down to the beach was a steep, rugged, slippery dirt trail. I’d pack a little lunch in a brown bag, beach towel and cocoa butter in hand. Skipping and hopping my way toward the beach. Standing above, on the cliff, spying some good little waves coming in along the jetty. Smiling, happy, walking down this hill, to enjoy the sweetest summer days. Beautiful days by the sea, body surfing the waves, laying in the sunshine.  And that perfect, knowing moment, when the heat of the sun on the body says it’s time to be diving into cool water.  The senses so alive to the beauty, glimmering light, sea gulls screeching, the rhythmic sound of waves breaking on the shore – true love. Unbound, easy, being it all, being alive, rich with the wholeness of life.  Somehow, the feeling of those days has found me again, right here, where I am. It’s timeless and it is my sweet joy, the sweetest freedom. Now, it lives right here in my heart. I am living the profound mystery of love, of the unbound heart, carefree, like a child again. And and yes, it is wild as the wind, it is sensual and open, peaceful –  and as deep and real as this eternal ocean of my...

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Spirit and Beauty

Spirit and Beauty

Exactly what I love; Everything. Yes, everything, exactly that. I discovered there is no reason to try to pull life apart into ‘ego and not ego’ or self and not self, or real and unreal, higher self and lower self. As if we could possibly separate Life and all that it is, from itself and its very own totality of self-knowingness. No, I found it can’t be done. It’s not the way to love and peace and joy and the unbridled being of who we are. Oh that wry wit and whimsy of Life. Its magic, its mystery. I am totally enamored with this world, its simplicity and its glory. Yes, how much I do love it all. Everyday some marvelous epiphany, some tender glimmer of light in my heart. Oh yes, yes. One day I discovered there is nothing but Identity. That I am the living awareness of Something that is infinite and forever.  Life is the Living Divine Mind being this awareness I am. It is my very Self-knowing. It is me and it is all that Life is.  It’s God’s ego, I suppose. It is nothing but Love and Light and Self-knowing. And this Awareness does not come from out of me, I do not possess this Awareness, this living infinity of  me, but it does live as the life and light of all that I am. We are the Light of the All in all. Living awareness, God’s awareness, knowing itself as Identity, as you and me.  I am the Self-Knowing Identity of the Ineffable All That Is. And yes, I can only speak for me and what I have found. But for me, the journey here, in this world of time and matter, is not about achieving some void of no-me, to become emptiness or living without a sense of self.  No, not at all, for me, it has proven itself to be totally the opposite. Life led me home, the ups and downs, the painful losses, the tears of love, the anguish, it all brought me home. It was the hard teachings led me back to myself, this childlike innocent beauty and happiness, back to my heart, to understanding and unbound freedom from fear. Life is about Self discovery, walking into it all and seeing the beauty of everything, including our self. There is no way to know Life/God’s Presence without you and me, this self we are, right here in the middle of it all.  I am an aspect of this All Inclusive wholeness, this Ineffable Mystery that is knowing Itself to be. Well, it took me a long time to find this freedom, this fearless knowing of this eternal light that is being who I am.  It took a conscious choice to be brave, at first, trusting what had been revealed to me, leaping in and living it all. I cannot be otherwise. I am the wonder of Its ever unfolding beauty and grace and it proves me true every moment of every...

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Moonlight Night

Moonlight Night

  The moonlight fills her eyes and pours out its eternal radiance. Illumination shines within her. Here, in this infinite sea of her soul, she finds this bounty of treasures, sparkling, bejeweled gifts from heaven. She is enchanted by the exquisite, opalescence of this sacred depth of supernal magic. She keeps her love tucked in her heart. Her tender tears, drops of heaven remembered, she keeps there too

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Sweet Surprise

Sweet Surprise

One day, after much searching of my own heart, seeking the light of truth –  and testing many of the things I thought I knew — rather unexpectedly, I found myself unleashed, and sailing, floating free, soaring, fearless and in love with my entire world. In that freedom I found the holy Trinity – Three that are one. What is interesting about this too, is that I could see this invisible, and yet quite obvious, immeasurable light everywhere I looked.  It was in my eyes and in my heart, it was all that I am.  The universe came alive with this living light of life. My heart is filled with the wild enchantments of this divine light. It is the lightness of love. And I must admit,  I love to love. It’s easy to love, because I love love.  The inside and outside have fallen passionately in love.  I can’t tell if I am inside or outside – but I love this romance between me and life. Every part of me is touching this light of the world. My heart is open – I have no rules, no dogma, no path to follow or disciplines to abide. I am on the loose and in love, in love with the mystery, the beauty, the whole wild adventure. But it is more than that, it is a Trinity. The two that are one make the third part, the totality, the wholeness of the holy Trinity.  It’s like making love, when in the midst of this passion and feeling, all the senses entangled, the lover and beloved become one. The two are enveloped in love. That makes three. The rhapsody of love between the two lovers is transcendent, it is the third part, the unseen mystery, the sacred heart of this holy Trinity.  I can hear the universe speaking to me in the language of symbols.  I read it like a road map. It led me home, back to myself, the divine self that lives between matter and spirit — and loves them both with all her heart. I like to play in the wild flower fields. I like to dance to the strumming sounds, the heart beat, the breath, the music coming from some cosmic rock band of rebel angels. When I was a little girl I loved feeling the wet sand under my bare feet. I loved the cool breeze off the ocean, as it lovingly tangled my hair.  All senses alive and touching my world. I would look up and out, and my head was filled with the infinite wonders and the cosmic delights of the stars.  All that wonder and love has come back to me. It happened, just like my friend said it would.  Matter and spirit, objective and subjective, inside and outside — the opposites became one. The paradox is understood – the contradictions being the very proof of an unassailable, infinite totality. It is real, this love and this peace, the richness of my soul that has found me.  I have fallen in love with life – and it pulls me in close, just like a lover. This sweet trip has taken my heart –  and I willing give it....

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Black Speedster

Black Speedster

  He picked me up in this beautiful speedster.  I was walking home from the market. Back then, I’d carry my groceries home in a little back pack and hike across town. He slowed down when he saw me on the sidewalk. He pulled up along side me and he said “Hey, want a ride?” I’d always loved this guy. We had this thing for each other for a long time. I was always turning him down. I knew I’d be in trouble if I ever gave in to my not so hidden desires. This time, for some reason, who knows why? Maybe that car did it. I do love beautiful cars and beautiful men. I said “Yes.” and I smiled and got in. He took me for a ride of a life time – It was sweet perfection with that man. I love life. I love this whole wild, untamable adventure. I like taking my chances. It works for me. Perhaps it is that Jupiter thing. They say it is a planet of the gambler. I just don’t see how anyone can know where anything is going, anyway. Life is a gamble. Planets or not. Life isn’t something anyone can control. It is, after all, the very River of the Living Tao and no one has the power to control this immutable, omniscient force that Life is. How sweet, how lucky I am – how extraordinary it all is. How magical that he picked me up that day. And that car. It’s all magic. There is nothing here that anyone can explain. Nothing. We have no choice really. I’ll just let go and see where the River takes...

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Child’s Science

Child’s Science

Here is an excerpt from my book “Barefoot at Heart – The Alchemy of Love and the Power of Light” —  You can find my book on Amazon, or if you prefer, you can order directly from me –sandyjoneswoodsong@gmail.com Chapter 5 –  Page 138  —   Child’s Science “Awareness existed before any manifestation. Which is more significant awareness or manifestation? It is the Heart that instructs, not the words. The heart goes beyond words and cannot be fooled.” —William Samuel Awareness, Reality, Presence includes within It all time, past and future. All matter and form. Things seen and unseen. It is Infinity unfolding as this world we see and be. One day I realized it was easy. I change the past by changing the present. I change the present by changing the past. It’s all quantum physics. And it works. Love really is all there is. It reaches from here to eternity. Love, it is a kind of Love that is unbound and lives as life itself, in and as all things. It is a stupendous love, a tremendous love of an Ineffable Isness that is being All that is and all that I am. It is this very awareness, this consciousness I am right here. It’s Ineffable. I can’t hold it, yet it’s the wholeness of life and it is alive with all that I am. It’s an Ineffable Isness that I call God. God is being all Life. It is the Love I am. The Ineffable is being everything that I see. It is the basis in being for every image, for every leaf, for every bird song, for every tender teardrop. As William said somewhere, it is the joy happening underneath an apple tree, where every bee that buzzes is enraptured by the Love and Beauty. Every bee getting intoxicated by those rotting apples under the tree, is a joy to behold. What a fine joy of God we see as those drunken bees, those potted, smashed, inebriated bees partying on the fermented nectar from the fallen apples. And what a delightful story Bill tells about sloshed bees in the garden. I am enchanted by his humor and brilliance. I love the intelligent and charming way he teaches me how to live my own heart’s knowing Truth. This Love is everything. It is every swallow that swoops, every dog that barks, and my sweet lover, it is every kiss I kiss your tender, sweet body with. Beauty and Love. Love and Life. Sensuality, yes, sweetheart of mine, it’s all so divine. The Ineffable Love really is being all that we see and be and do in this tangible world. Just as there is an ineffable alphabet or the unseen principle of math, there is an Ineffable Source of Life. Much like the spoken word, the intangible word, this Source manifests in and as the ideas made tangible. It is as if this world we see, hear, know, touch and feel is the intangible word made tangible. This world of time and matter is like the symbols, the letters of the alphabet. There stands a Divine Omniscient Principle behind the symbols. Therefore the Ineffable Divine Principle has its Being in and as all things. This Divine Principle is the Love that is moving, living and being all things, every animate and inanimate thing. God the unknowable Isness, is just being about the business of being What It Is. It is Love loving and knowing Itself and knowing what Love is and that Love is. That means that I am Love. I am the action of Love loving my world, loving the images, loving the people, loving the ones I love....

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Divine Light

Divine Light

  Love leaves the confines of ideologies, doctrines, dogma and the restricting limitations of regulations and rules. Love is freedom. Love makes it easy to see in new ways. It opens the heart to expansive vistas, to freedom. Love and freedom go hand-in-hand. Love and Reality resides right here as the very Identity I am. Each of us can put ourself here because this unbound Self, this tranquility, this joy, this peace and beauty is your Identity as well. A rush of passion celebrates the joy of this simple, everyday existence of my being, of life, this marvelous magic that is being me. I am this living mystery of ever-flowering beauty. The moonlight song ten thousand fathoms deep is a fact quite plenty enough for me. I’m filled with this awe and wonder that is living here in the middle of an infinity of myself.  Life is an enigma, a mystery so extraordinary, veiled in the soft pink light of the ordinary. How marvelous this goodness of God’s love is.  I am a million joys, living irresponsibly and aimless, carried by this river of fearless love that upholds me. It is not mine to tell others what to do. Mine is this wind blown freedom of an irresistible and effortless joy.  Mine is a deep, blue lake, reflecting the periwinkle sky. My heart hears the sounds of happy laughter, here, in the silvery moonlight, where the children and the fairies play....

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In The Garden

In The Garden

Adam is saddened by these visions, but ultimately revived by revelations of the future coming of the Savior of mankind. In sadness, mitigated with hope, Adam and Eve are sent away from the Garden of Paradise. Well, now, it comes to me to say the Savior in the story, the one that is to return in the future, that’s this unbound heart within, the holy Child that lives within each and everyone of us. That’s it, we always have this Living One here within. We are never without this Savior. We uncover that Child, the tender beauty we put away, it comes alive in us again and we are suddenly in Paradise. Here, now, realizing we never left this sweet place, never left this meadow. Adulthood is a bad joke. The inspired are not buying into it. The adult is already dead. No need to carry him around. The Child is alive, living life, now, here, always. Let the dead bury the dead.  The Child is waiting to be rediscovered and show you the wonders of you, that you have always been. We realize nothing stands between our heart and life. There is nothing that has kept us from Paradise.  There is no death, there is only Life and it is all that I am – all that you are. We let go the idea that there is some devil or sinner or anything that keeps us from the Light. There isn’t anything that stands between you and Paradise. Nothing. The Child knows she has never been, nor ever will be separated from Life, the Kingdom of God. This is obvious.  She is the living flow of beauty and joy and magic. She is real. She sees what most of the world cannot see.  Find that inner way shower, your own personal Savior. Now, with this inner Light as our guide, we see our world with new eyes.  It all changes. It becomes a fairyland of Eden – Pristine beauty and lightness of heart fills the air and the sweet, gentle breezes harmonize with the heavenly love songs that carry us along. We are home . We uncover and find this Original Self of us, right here in our heart. Here as the Light and Soul of us, open, free, vulnerable, and living.  We find the holy Child we are. We are set free – And the world is seen a Paradise, again. We see the world as it was when we were children, but this time we know the holy treasure that has returned to us – That’s it. Everything changes, it is heaven on earth. Paradise was only lost because we were blind to this Living One.  But now we see. That’s the story of everyone – We come home, back to the beginning, back to the Garden. We find out that the Savior is not another, not a man called Jesus,  but it is here as the very self I am – the self you are. It is the Child that lives, and moves and has it’s being in life everlasting, in Paradise.  Even the wise man called Jesus said this. We find it again. No denying that we have all been children, everyone of us., at one time in our life. This child is the one we look for again. This Child is the key, the way – we find that little boy, that little girl again – and we find we are home. Instantly, we look out and around and we see Paradise. We know we are in the Garden. It is perfectly, totally clear,...

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Magical Adventure

Magical Adventure

So, there she was riding her bike down the street.  She was inhaling the scent of the eucalyptus and pepper trees.  In the warm air they were giving off a lovely, distinctive fragrance; pungent, spicy, fresh, savory and satisfying. She was feeling it all.  Her senses fully alive. She didn’t realize she was in a daze, enthralled by the sensual delights as she road along. Everything within her and everything out there was touching her. She felt the richness, she was alive to it all.  She was in bliss, steeped in heaven. Taking it all in, all of it. She felt the whole magical adventure permeating her.   She couldn’t separate herself from the beauty of the world around her. Her heart was full of pleasure.  She felt a euphoria, like opium, lifting her spirit, taking her higher.  She was intoxicated by the sensual delights that washed through her. She’s in love, in love with the world.  She was entranced, enamored with the beauty. Her eyes were filled with the twinkle of the misty light flashing through the leaves, blinking on and off in golden and sliver sparks of illumination. Captivated, enchanted  — then she felt the wobble and wonk. The tires hitting sand, the bike sliding sideways, heading for a ditch.   It only lasted a moment, but she became instantly aware that she was about to throw her self off course, about to take a fall.   She had an innate ability to catch herself in slow motion. She had a love for equanimity. She had a deep sense of temperance. She was intuitive and able to make quick changes in direction. She used a little smooth maneuvering, took hold – and the bike was under control once again. There was something lovely, soft and supple about her way of being. She had no inclination to force things, no demands. She let things come and go easy.  She was in love with life. She took her chances. She was a gambler at heart. The gods had invited her to this divine party and she was not going to turn down an invitation from them. She would take what comes.  However, on this little ride, she got the message. She felt that bump, the wobble. She would enjoy this sensual, marvelous, wondrous world – but she wouldn’t lose her balance, nor would she ever forget where she was going. There is a way to enjoy the beauty and adventures of this world and keep the balance. She wouldn’t lose the gift she had found. She wouldn’t lose her soul, her truth, her guiding light within her  – it had taken her many years to find this inner ballast and now she rests easy with it’s sacred ways. Balance, yes, there is a deep inner core of her that keeps her steady and true, yielding, light and strong, all at once. She was fully aware of this gift.  She would take what she had been given. She would do what she does.  She trusted her self. She was in love with life. She would give herself fully. She was fearless, willing to live wide open.  She was in love with all of it, the twists and turns, the rough ride, the losses, the sorrows, the beauty, the wonders and joys – all the ups and downs.  And the sweetest part of all this, is that life was in love with her. Life was on her side. Life would always do her right. Life and her, they are a couple, a fine pair, soul mates.  Life looks at her and says “You coming with me?”...

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Essential

Essential

There are steps along the way to self discovery. For me, it was essential that I found the Child. That was the last step.  I don’t mean a final step as if everything came to an end.  No, the journey goes on. But there was a point where I seemed to slip right out of the old world view and into this new view.  This bright, wonderful, fearless state of mind. It was like walking into a colorful, rich, twinkling, peaceful meadow. i changed, my world changed. Now I see my world a bit like I did as a little girl. I feel this sense of wonder in everything. I feel this energy of enthusiasm and I am enchanted by my life. I’ve walked into a fairyland, filled with magic.  It is, yes, it really is. And I feel this youthful, delightful daring, always bubbling through me. So, for me, in order to really feel, know the very living joy life, to experience the full sense of wholeness of myself, I had to find the Child. I had to return to that pure, unadulterated, fearless soul of myself. This is it. This is what we are seeking. We all have this Child in us. It may be covered over by years of education, indoctrination and subjugation – but it never dies – it is eternal and it can return while here in the world. And when you find it, it comes back in all its glory. So, after years of metaphysical-spiritual study, I uncovered this holy Child of myself, this unbound beauty of myself, the unrestricted, pristine mind and soul of me. I could not have ever reached this marvelous state of being, without the Child.  Oh, but she did come back and she is my way shower, my very own personal messiah, right here with me. And she holds the hand of God. That’s what makes this easy. This Child has a divine intelligence that is fresh and intuitive, resilient and visionary, creative and alive. I feel a sense of wholeness now. This inner core of myself leads me aright, easy and onward.  Here in this new world, this meadow of love, I have no questions anymore. What I sought, has revealed itself – there is no secret – not anymore. Now I see. Now I get to enjoy this entire adventure of life – sailing this way, this childlike way, through it all. This knowing is real and self-evident. There is no doubt about this. And now, I feel rather fearless, like I did as a little girl. It’s brave and bold and it won’t buy into the lies and corruption being perpetrated on us all.  Nothing can take down this living sprit of the Child. It is immutable, just as God is. It sits next to Reality. It reveals to me the powerlessness of things. It is the very life of me, the part of me that is before time, before this world was. This is the divine fire within me.  This soul of mine, this is the very essence of love and it burns full of life, here, as real as the soft night air, as real as this smile, as real as this heart full of joy. We all have this living, pristine light of intelligence and freedom within ourself.  . Many have found this liberating spirt as well. It’s within you, waiting to be lived. Take it and run with it. It is dominion.  “The child is alive with this fire, and we, the adults, smother it as best we can. When we cease...

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Totality

Totality

Something in me has always had a deep recognition and love for the divine light of this world. It’s not that everything in this world is the way we think it should be, or the way we’d want it to be.  No, it’s just that everything in this world is – all this is – existence itself astounds me. Existence astounds me. It’s a phenomenon, a mystical event that includes all sorts of things –  and to my joy, I am experiencing it – and that’s what makes it holy and sublime. It’s totally and completely all that is. That’s impressive. Totality means all. All is all and totally all. There is nothing outside of total. I’m experiencing the existence of God. I’m the awareness of an Ineffable Something that always was and forever will be. This presence of existence is undeniable.  And this Ineffable Something has no beginning and no end. That’s sacred stuff. It is a sweet mystery, that is, by its very existence, so far beyond the human concepts and yet it is here. I am living it. It shines bright as this entire universe of my being.  This Ineffable Supernal Isness is an unseen, immutable, unknowable presence. And this world of form and measure, light, time and matter is the evidence It leaves behind – like the wake behind a ship.  That’s an incomprehensible marvel.  Here it is. We are the living evidence of the Absolute. I’m awestruck by this world. Everything and nothing, all in perfect balance.   It’s all here, the perfect and the imperfect, the harmony and the discord, darkness and light. Mixing and matching both sides, we find beauty, we find love, we find our self.  Striving for the right sound, the sweet sound that feels good, that rings in our heart clear and melodic, right and true –  I love that. This is the heart’s desire for the beauty of the alrightness of things. We strive for the upward toward goodness and love. We find this alrightness when we lift our sights to the gentle, tender visions within us. This wonderful experience of life includes the pure and impure and it goes both ways, into infinity. It spirals up up up and down down down. That’s profound and beautiful. We get to live every moment and every iota of whatever it is we live.  We have the freedom to choose which way we want to go.  It is a matter of heart and soul.  Within my heart, I am free to go any way I want to go.  I’ll stay in the middle, here in the wonder and beauty of it all. I am innately attuned with the higher visions of my soul, but, while here in this tangible world, I will enjoy both heaven and earth. I have found the sweet spot, living this childlike soul of mine. I get to love my world, being here in all this sensual beauty, I get to enjoy it all — while being in love with the formless Light that is behind it all. Balanced between form and formless I live a fearless freedom.  That’s divine, that’s heaven on earth. Going rogue, that’s how I found this golden point in my heart. Here, in between, I am connected to both the sensual world of form and the holy comfort of the divine. I am living both sides of infinity, in this heavenly place of peace and beauty, in a simultaneous love of everything. I am a vessel of this ultimate intimacy with God. Feeling it all, the further out I go, the closer to myself I get.   This life...

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Strawberry Night

Strawberry Night

  I am living in the cosmic paradise of God’s sweet bountiful beauty. I am the light and the laughter of the strawberry moon glowing her reflections upon the dark blue mirrored lake’s deep silence. I am this love’s eternal infinite water of eternity and mystery. Golden green eyes, sparkling eyes, besot by the red glitter dancing in the night sky. Who could ever, ever, doubt the existence of God? It’s much too near and much too real to doubt It. God is the living magic behind this whole entire world of mine. God lives the very light in my eyes, God sees what I see — and there is no other seeing I can ever be. My entire being is touched by the divine. Nothing, nothing is outside of this living light that tells me I am free. There is no other life I can be, but this living God that is the unbound, shimmering starlight of me...

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That’s The Magic

That’s The Magic

This wonderful adventure of life, how dear it has all become. It’s full of sweet surprises. The magic is divine. The love pours over me.  All I can say is that I have found Something that floats me. Keeping me in a repose that is steady, easy – while always in movement. The motion is the balance. It holds me lightly, gently swaying me in the holy currents. It moves and I move with it. This heart of mine, this living mystery of me and it is alive to this experience of a world of time and matter. This life of me, it is living, touching, moving me in this sweet mystery of an unseen love that is being all that is and all that I am. It is freedom and peace. It is a deep love that is not dependent on how the world appears. This love is more like an eternal fountain of pristine waters, clear and bubbling up and out, through my heart and into this world. I’ve realized that the world out there is a reflection of me, a reflection of these deep waters, this infinite love that flows and lifts me. This ever so slightly lifted view reveals a magical fairyland of twinkling light and effervescent joy of exquisite beauty. I am in love, with love, and as love. I am moving a nano-second ahead of the old time frame I was in. A minuscule slip of a moment in time changed my world entirely. It opened me, took me, swept me up and I saw my world is the beauty my own heart, my soul, this living, pure light of my very being. Listen, you know, we all have this pure light, it’s really all that is, the only thing that we really are. But, the discovery, maybe it takes life times, I don’t know. It is, I think, a little by little sort of thing. It comes to us when we are sincere, pure, exposing the innocent heart, unafraid of this life. It comes. When you find it, you just let go and let it take you. Like being in love, you fall in, can’t resist – and that’s the magic. I didn’t make it happen, I didn’t do this.  I just let life do what it wants with me and I love my way through it all.  So, maybe that’s it, maybe it just happens – love finds us. I am here, alive and so I live and trust this feeling that comes and takes me. Letting this beauty in, is like making love, letting go in the arms of my lover. Like a slow dance, holding close, swaying to the music, moved by his motion. In that moment of love, you see that the light in your soul is the very world you walk through. The two become one. The love you feel inside reflects outside, all around you. Everything is bright and beautiful. In love, you open your heart, you don’t hold back, fearless you let that light shine and shine bright – you look out and about and you see your whole world is shining with the same living love you are. The world and you are one. Ahhhh, sweet peace, sweet life, sweet relief – It holds me true and real. It is mine, lifting my world and the heart of those I love. I won’t close this door of my heart, not ever, it is the way of love and way to heaven here on earth. I’ve seen it. Now I hear God singing the sound of...

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Pink Marshmallow Cookies

Pink Marshmallow Cookies

In the summer, as very young girls, my friend Julie and I would spend our days at China Cove. It was named China Cove because on the beach there was a lovely rose-colored Chinese house. The China House is gone now. Demolished. Julie’s mother would pack us a picnic lunch and she always included those big pink marshmallowy cookies for us. There were no waves at this beach. It was like a secret spot because it was facing the inside of the bay. Secluded and quite private, it was a perfect beach for tiny children. We’d play in the water for hours, floating on our rafts, laughing and giggling, making up games, singing and telling stories. The day was so full of joy doing nothing, accomplishing nothing, getting nowhere, drifting, splashing in the salty water, feeling the warm sunshine. Well, much to my surprise these years later that little girl of those days has returned to me. She is here in my heart once again. I am astounded by this. But I know I am blessed by this too. Yes, I am that child again. And I am free, drifting, playing, laughing, making up games and singing my heart’s unbridled joy. The Child, the one who sits so close to Life, she has returned to me. She brings me the sweetest delights, she brings me this magic that lives in the simplicity of real untamed Love. I am free and fearless and alive to this whole sea of wonder and beauty that holds me now. She takes my hand and she watches over me, she knows exactly how to navigate this world for me. I listen to her and she shows me the way. She is connected to Something Wonderful that is beyond me, beyond time. She brings me unexpected surprises too– surprises even sweeter than those big pink marshmallow...

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Including Everything

Including Everything

This Light of Love, this Life we are, this Awareness I am includes every person, place and thing constituting the tangible universe. We leap into the Truth and we live it. We are Love. We live as Love. We live this Light of solitary awareness — In living it, we find our experiences of our world to be rich and full and never lonely. We are on the joyous adventure of living beauty. We are never without Love. We are never without the ones we love.  Here, in this knowing of our Self, we find this sense of peace and wholeness underpinning and holding us. Here, in this place, as the Child of Light, pure and free, here is the divine equilibrium, steady and true. It is our Father’s good pleasure to give us the Kingdom. Here, in this Light of our very own Self, we discover that nothing is missing in our life. After all, does not consciousness include everything within itself? Everything—from the least little chickadee chirping in the morning light, playing on the branches of the orange tree – to every star in every galaxy that exists — from every sound that has ever been heard to every face that has ever been glimpsed. Does it not? It does, yes It does. It is true. This Life, this awareness-being-you is Love and is Self-satisfied and knows nothing of loneliness. All of it, everything we ever knew and loved, husband, family, home, whatever and whoever we have loved appeared as images within awareness. And Lord knows, this Awareness did not put the images there, nor is Awareness responsible for them. Who did? Who does? Reality, God, Isness, The ineffable One, The Single, The Only, The unbound, unlimited All. We are It’s living proof. My dear one, my dearest love. This Always was – and Always will of be of our Self-knowing Light. And what are images? That which God knows God to be—the infinite qualities and attributes of Deity. Isn’t that the most wonderful thing? Isn’t that Love? Yes, yes it is. This is my sweet peace of Life, this Living Love that Is the heart and soul of all that I am. This is true. This is my indissoluble joyful...

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High Adventure

High Adventure

I have fallen in love with this wind blown, wild flower beauty of my soul.  To my surprise, I have found the living heart of wholeness. It is me. It is who I am. I am the fearless explorer roaming through the world. My world has become a shimmering meadow of heaven on earth. Heart and soul comes alive in the light of this Child I am. My life, my love, we wander this world, filled with all that heaven is.  This path I found, it leads straight through my heart and takes me into the fields of freedom. It leads me into the fullness of myself. I am my very own delight as this world itself. I am living the exquisite expanse of the divine. This glory of the universe, moving, I move with it. It carries me and I go along. Tao of my heart, I see it all, as I live it’s profound mystery, it’s ever embracing, ever allowing, love. This richness of my own soul includes you, your heart, every heart, the endless star filled sky, every song, every tear and every smile – all of it.  I am the fullness of Life in all its everlasting, perfect simplicity. In this Light, I realize my own, solitary, steadfast beauty. I am playing in the wonder of Life’s marvelous, ongoing love – and love’s unfolding joyful adventures. Looking into the night sky, the boundless knowing of my entire universe illumines and lights my soul. This is the eternity of me.  Oh my love, how sweet my peace, to know the totality and reality of the very being of you and me. There is nowhere else to be. I am here. Standing barefoot in the wet sand, I breathe in the moist ocean air and watch the waves crash on shore. In the fullness of this holy wonder I know that I am the completeness of myself. I am all of it – it is all of me – all mine.  My joy lets me free. How much more in love can I be? No more than this. I hear the primal, rhythmic, sound of waves breaking, as I am watching the white-water glowing, nearly fluorescent, in the moonlight. Love is unbound and set free. Walking back to the campfire, the flames spark and snap, flickering in harmony with the light of thousand years, that fills my eyes. Shadows cast by the fire, dance upon the deep blue of the night. I am safe and warm in my lovers arms. The Pleiades sing their celestial song of love.  So dear, so close, so real. I am held by this genuine love that moves my world.  Its proof is the very living of this wholeness that fills my life. This is love, this is the love I am.  This.  There is no doubt. It proves itself to me. This knowing allows me to be brave, allows me to let go and recognize the vibrant joy of this Child of light and wisdom within me. She takes my hand. I am free. This immutable self of myself shows me the way. From this center of luminescence comes a vital enthusiasm for this fascinating marvel of being. It all makes me smile and I hear the laughter of God right here in my own heart. I look at you, I see it twinkling bright your eyes. Now I walk through life in a gentle, untroubled, soft and easier way. Yes, yes, so easy now. This tender, vulnerable love of mine is open and alive, powerful and serene. It is without motive or...

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Until the Twelfth of Never

Until the Twelfth of Never

Until the twelfth of never — and that’s a long, long, time. Such is love and children and sunshine and divine Omniscience.  What a great word that is. Think of it; divine Omni-science  – That’s It. That’s what Life is. That’s sweet and easy. We live as the ongoing bounty of endless love. Nice. There is not, was not, nor will there ever be, such a time that we are not this. Holy wonder-world of being. This world is only the tangible half of Omniscience.  This tangible world of form, is Omniscience, Totality, pointing out and identifying its other half; the unseen timeless, ever present, ever lasting, other half of Omniscience. Eternal, timeless, formless, has no way to appear in form to Itself except as a sequence of tangible, felt, seen, lived, known events. It is our great pleasure to be It’s Self-knowing experience. Experienced as this sequence appearing as a linear, ongoing, unfolding, progressive order and time — Life as form, moving in one apparent direction. The Child heart of us knows these things in a very intuitive way. The Child knows by way of being balanced between both time and timelessness.  We don’t need it all explained, we feel it, know it, like music, like a love song, like love, we know when we know — and yet, these new ideas comprehended, are exactly what the physical sciences are becoming aware of.  When they realize they are exploring their own divine Selfhood,  their own Identity – that shall be a day of sweet hallelujahs.   Knowing the Light of our Identity, we realize that this world is not something to be feared, altered, overcome in arrogant pomposity trying to change everything.  No, now we have found that, as Lao Tse said, “The world is already a perfect vessel and whoever tries to improve it, spoils it.”  Yes. The universe is within consciousness, and it is perfect as it is. The Child heart of us knows the wonder and beauty of this experience. We understand and appreciate this world. It is to be lived to the fullest. Love is the action and way of living in this new light of genuine Self discovery.  We discover that this Living Omniscience is all that we are. We are the living of Infinite Identity.  By living this new light, I am rewarded with more new light. That rocks my gypsy soul. To find and live our grand and holy Infinity that is being all that I am, all that you are, including all of everything, all the images, tangible or intangible –  this is love, this is truth, this is freedom. We find This and then we watch the magic happen. I know why they say God is Love. Oh yes I do. We are given the freedom and Joy of being who we are. We can accept it any time we like. Now we live again. We are fearlessly embracing our whole world.  Now we fall in love again, tenderly, totally, here, in love with my world, in love with you. Because this love fills my soul and lifts my heart and brings me the riches of knowing my own heart.  To know the magic –  oh yes – and all these sublime wonders of my universe entire; to know you, the breeze, the sky, the stars, the sea, desert blooms and English gardens of rambling roses – this life of love and beauty, goodness, laughter, joy and peace – all this is mine. Forever my love...

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Color and Light

Color and Light

Praise the Lord and hallelujah. I hear music. I hear the Beach Boys. Music, like light and color, cannot be held, or understood, except by and through the living evidence of it. We hear it, we see it, we know it directly. Yet, it is impossible to explain. Impossible to know, until you see, hear, feel and know it — Ah, yes, such is life —   and such is love.  Dear life.  Sweet love. So much wonder and beauty here, in the world. Yes, I love you. Having the soul of an artist I am captivated by color. There is something about light and color that speaks to me. I am fascinated by color. Perhaps because this world is made light; light and music the essence of life. True. So, let’s talk color for a moment. All things appearing to be solid, and yet they are as chimerical as a rainbow. As illusory as an illumined mirage in the sands of the Mojave Desert. This entire world is like a radiant spectrum cast upon the wall, projected by the faceted prisms of a beveled glass window. I’m in love, I’m caught in the infrared, slipping through the ultraviolet, captivated by the seen and unseen. It is my heart that catches the sunbeam’s ray and feels its beauty. Life, sweet life,  life is music and dancing colors, nothing more than this and yet so rich and real and living. It is a love song that I cannot hold, but I can know it as assuredly as I know love is. A color is impossible to grasp. What is it? It is here, I see it. It is Light that I see, all shining, glimmering. It’s in me, in my eyes.  It is me, it touches my soul with such sweet laughter and joy. How do we know what music is, except to hear it. To hear it is to know it, to know it is to be it. Life is the evidence of Love. What is this world that is appearing before my eyes? It is visible and yet intangible, ephemeral. Like beauty, like love, like music and color – all Life – all that I am. I am swept away with this sweet world. This vision of my very self leaves me unbound, alive, feeling everything. Pinks and azures arrive in the evening sunset, unbidden, seeping out of the magic of Life. I am in love with this seducing beauty of my open and fearless heart. Love forever...

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Just Curious

Just Curious

Just curious. From the perspective of love and beauty, do you worry about the state of the world, climate change? Or do you rest in knowing that all is taken care of? I love curiosity.  So thank you for the question.  I think the short answer would be that I rest in knowing that all is taken care of. The longer answer is going to trample all over the simple  beauty and love I prefer to share – but, I’ll give it a try anyway. My words come from  the love and beauty of Reality I see. Reality just makes it easy to fall in love with the world. I’ve fallen in love with everything. Seeing what is Real lets me rest in here in this world. Oh my, how I do love Life and my world. When we discover Reality, we become fearless.  When fear is gone, love just pours through everything. When love is pouring through everything, then everything is beautiful. When we know who we really are, we know what Real really is, what Reality means. That’s freedom. We are no longer slaves to matter. The basis of Life is spirit, not matter – seeing this, we are no longer subject to fear. Without fear the heart is wide open and truly at peace. Here, being open and fearless, we know what Love is, and we live it. It is the very life of us, the divine river of our self, and it flows with us, through us, as us. This sweet light of love is in our eyes, in our heart, and in our soul. It is us.  And we see that state of beauty we are, reflected in the world around us. Being fearless, life and all the bumps and falls, become so much easier. We are in love with it all. Now we know and know we know. We see the beauty we be. It is all that is. Liberating. The material world no longer holds any power over us. No longer giving the value to matter or things, we are no longer subjects, subservient to any system that controls by way of fear. We come home to our self. We are the authority for ourself alone.  Nothing, nothing is more wonderful nor more liberating or powerful than this. We make our own Self discovery.  We know who we are, once we find Reality. We find dominion. We know for our selves what Reality is and we live it here in the world. We know it, because we are living it.  What is Real delineates all the marvelous wonders and beauty pointing to the Real.  The Real stands ever present, unharmed, changeless and perfect.  Such sweet freedom this is. We are now completely embracing this Life we are.  We are filled with love, we are in love with the whole entire thing called life, no matter whatever label it goes by, all of it is God;  the good, the bad, the bumps, and losses, all of it, entirely  – it is simply divine. Or as the basic idea goes – and it is true-  God is All – and all means all.  No exceptions. This turns out to be absolutely true. But, you have to prove it and know for yourself. Yes, so that is my joy and what I write about. It’s quite remarkable, all of it- it is deep and profound and powerful. Yet, it feels so simple, credulous, innocent and pure. But as my friend William Samuel said, and I know he is right, without the Child there is no way to realize any of...

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Evening Sky

Evening Sky

The planets soar above, spinning wonder through my mind. This love I am, it shines the golden sun low in the sky. Dancing shadows swing and sway to life’s joyful rhythms. I hear the ocean waters sing to me. My feet feeling the wet sandy shore. Waves lullaby, that sweet sound. The sparkling light, here in my eyes, a world of love, as the sun goes down. Here she is, she is my heart, she is the little girl of me, so free and full of life – and she lives again. There is beauty in this childlike purity, this pristine soul of myself. She sees there is Light in all things. There is the love that never leaves or forsakes us. This love seen as God’s living world of all manner of things.  It’s all God’s. I see with the heart of this Child of God. She knows, living this divine presence, here, being all that is. I have lived it, I have proven it true for myself. You can too. This is the song in my heart. This infinite Light is the wind, the trees, the evening’s melody, the love song of all that I am – all that you are. My sweet joy stands upon this discovery, this recovery of my very own undying Identity. The same Life and Light I am, is the Light and Life you are. How much closer to you could I be, than this. This. With the heart and mind of this tender, childlike wonder that has been uncovered, now, I am back in the world, I am charmed and touched by the cabaret of Life, this wondrous love story. It is a musical, a very good musical, full of adventure, sometimes a romping comedy. Sometimes a passionate, tender, romantic musical. Beloved song of life. Tonight I see this deific leaping light, eternal light of love, painting images in this kaleidoscope of swirling brilliance. And yes, it is always about Love, always. Our very Identity is Love Itself. Love is who and what we are. Love is not something we must do for others or others for us. No. The sunshine, the warm sunset light, the sound of the sea, the waves, seagull flying above, and this carefree beauty I am, the smile you are, none of these have to do a thing in order to be what is – because Love Itself is this Identity.  I am standing under this raining radiance of sparkling laughter, it sprinkles lightly down on me, sweeps me away into colors of bliss. All this wild, untamed beauty; God’s joy, lifts my heart in fearless love. Arms wrapped, moving close, hearts colliding, this world of myself, of you –  beauty feeling love’s warm breaths softly moving as one. Love always...

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Nothing Complicated

Nothing Complicated

I’ve come down the stairway and walk into this grand ballroom of scintillating jewels and fabrics, softly glowing silks, deep purples and radiant golds. I’m here to give it all away. It’s just too wild and wonderful, this world. It is a rollicking festival of the divine, I hear the music of God. This is the living, spinning, shimmering word of God. My heart, a glowing red ruby inferno, unrelenting. Yes, my heart will go on. You and I, ablaze in the flames of this holiness, lit by the sweet sounds of laughter. We are setting it all afire like playful pyromaniacs of love. I want to hold you in my arms and let you fall open into the soft depth me. I am not afraid. I love this world of mine. I am maintaining this simple, credulous sensitivity with the courage of my welcoming heart. In the light of this love, I see you as bright as Venus on a starry night.  I see the energy of your passion shining through the eternity in your eyes. I love your beauty. That’s all. I just simply love your earthly, glorious, crazy ways.  It’s nothing complicated. My strange and wondrous world, you have taken me. Very often, startling  me in those winsome ways you are.  I love how your moves are sometimes capricious.   You can change with such rapid motion.  Life, you allure me. Life, you call to me and I come.  I want to be embraced by your heavenly, succulent beauty.  I want to make love to this whole wild world.  You are the sparkling sunshine of my very own soul. I drink it up like a Chateau Margaux 1982. Ah, yes, sweet memories. My husband used to say “Here beautiful, this Margaux is for you. It’s perfection. They made it especially for you.” His smile, his bow lips, I adored. Oh and indeed he was right. To savor it, sip it, taste it, twirl it, feel it’s sweet warmth fill me with pleasure as it would unbind me.  My beauty exposed in the glowing heat of love. Now I am in love with my whole sweet world. Yes, I’ve become intoxicated, fearless, merging my heart with Life. Now I laugh in delight as this experience of time over flows with such wonder and mystery. Ever my love. I am invited in for more. I accept the offer. This world surprised me. Completely taken off guard, I am enchanted. Yes, I know. I now see that I descended a stairway from heaven that led me into this captivating mystery and a world of such exquisite treasures. I couldn’t refuse this gift of love. I am comfortable in the familiar celestial realms of light and spirit, I know the unseen wonders. I know the mystery well.  I know that world. That’s easy. It is this world, here, now, this magical place of things, time and matter that intrigues me so much.  It is infused with that infinite Love. Yes, it’s here, all here in this world, it shines with the Light Divine.  The wedding between heaven and earth has taken place. The wine is served. The cake enjoyed.  The holy bridal chamber entered.  Let us drink from this holy grail of everlasting Life. I love you always, and longer if I...

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Always Was

Always Was

The Light is eternal. There is an immeasurable Light beyond this limited light. This unseen, limitless Light is the Light that is Life – and Life has no opposite. It is All. It is a Light that has no beginning, and therefore no end. The Light that always was and forever will be. This Light of Life cannot die.   Life is the livingness of Love. My one true love. Life does not exist without Love. Light is Real, it is the Reality being all things. Reality is seen as the evidence of all things. The Real that stands behind the evidence is changeless.  This is Love. Love and beauty are eternal. Easter is a celebration to remind us that Love never dies. Spring time comes and the garden blooms again.  We are love. We tell the stories of the resurrection of Life, the return of Light, of being born again, forever we live as the Living One. We shine bright, we smile, we laugh, we love. Everyday we awaken to this unchanging beauty of our own heart. We rise and shine knowing the Light we are. Yes, the Light we live is come, is here, is already the being of who we are. No matter how things might appear, we know the joy of spring, we know the Light of Life is the Love we are. We live with our heart wide open to the Joy of Life. Here is our knowing Light within us — and we look out and see the evidence of this Love. It all blooms new, comes back to life and lives again. Beauty never ceases to exist. The beauty I see, is the beauty I be, reflections of my infinity – this beautiful, wild, untamed heart of...

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Dare I Say

Dare I Say

I have a very zany way of looking at Life. This keeps me afloat, buoyant, steady and true. Something about seeing it all with an eye of whimsy and joy. I don’t know why I always tend toward humor, but I will say, it certainly keeps me filled with love and the ability to live with my heart wide open to this sweet adventure of Life. It is my strange take on things, my childlike inability to get too serious. Somewhere in this amusement is where God is. For me, it is. It’s sort of like being in 1st grade and my wanting to giggle at the protocol I was supposed to submit to. I do think God loves me for this little non-compliant spark in me. Oh well, yes, even as the world is on the verge of imploding, dare I say, I think it’s funny.  I say it’s funny because it’s an inside job, the corrupt desire to control others and the world is exactly how they destroy themselves – only themselves.  And I certainly won’t buy into the fear that the pharisee wish to lord over the spellbound masses.  It’s always been this way, as far as I can see. And I can see pretty far. So, here I am, I am still that little girl, she just cannot abide the conventional restraints of the ‘old man’s’ limited, contrived, ignorant, ridged view of the world. Here is the delight though, it is that, to see the irony in this insanity is also to see the sweet wonder and beauty and the divine of it all. Sweet Life. I know, that seems incongruous, but it’s really not.  And it’s truly joyful to know this unrestrained beauty that is clear and evident —  that’s what makes me smile.  This transcendent peace and light keeps my heart filled with happiness and yes, laughter. Well, really, there is this strange amusement in it all. I’ll just have to do this my way, thankful that I found this place, this holy haven of an abiding Love within me – and all it’s wonders – wonders that never leave or forsake me. Love forever...

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Tenderly

Tenderly

Growing up in my parents home, we had this intercom sound system. My dad had that bohemian aura about him. He was an artist, worked in the film industry, photography, movies, style, beauty, nature, the senses highly attuned to life and love. He would play his smooth music on the turn-table hi-fi system – It was cool – an intercom with the radio connected to it – and KPFK would be the staple piped in. Alan Watts among the voices heard. My memories of my home as a child are really wonderful. As it should be for all of us. I carried that Love into my whole life. I can feel the peace and security there.Those dark cork floors and that big open-hearth fireplace, and the music. I inherited many wonderful gifts from both of my parents. Among these gifts came this marvelous telepathy that still looms around me in my life. I’ve learned I can trust it. It’s always right, never failed me yet. I was thinking about how love really is tender. It is a gentle thing. It has nothing to do with force or control or as my friend William Samuel said, love is not coercion – and certainly love is not war. , That word ‘tenderly’ evoked this old song that came singing inside me this morning. It was one of my dad’s favorites, played on that very elegant music system hidden neatly on a shelf behind doors. So, listening to my intuition, I’m happy to be playing this old Rosemary Clooney tune for my dad and for us all, today. It’s my contribution to the war effort, said with a giggle and a smile.  This really is a great song – Thank you all my loves – Life is so very beautiful, and I’ll love softly, tenderly and easy –...

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Star of Wonder

Star of Wonder

I’m living the story of the three wise men. I’m following my guiding star.  I’m taking a trip back to my own inner star of Bethlehem.  I am the holy trinity, the three caballeros,  the musketeers. I am the three that one.  I am a measure of limited light here in the world of time-space- matter. I am the awareness that perceives this limited light within itself.  And beyond this, is the one being it all, the full measure of illimitable Light.  All three wed to one another. The three that are one. A Trinity as the very Life-I-Am living and I’m right here in the middle.  Three in one. I think some guy named an oil after this liberating insight. The perfect mix and combination of Love. Oil, anointing, funny. Life really is a divine comedy.  And to my complete joy, God has such a great sense of humor. None of this trip is to be taken too seriously, and yes, thank God for that. That’s not just by chance, no it’s not – and yes, God makes me smile. Here it is. Right here within us, Life itself.  This inner Light is residing, ever so steady and true. Here, within us is this powerful beam of glorious light, so bright. Now it’s guiding me through this world. And it keeps me laughing while traveling alone out here on the road. How beautiful it is. I’m being shown the way. I am the three wise men, I am the holy trinity. We are following the star and we cannot get lost.  Not now. Not now. It is my compass leading me through the deserts, the hills, the valleys, the vast, and  sometimes stormy, sea of life. Here, right here, I came to this simple, sweet manger in my own heart. This little town of Bethlehem, right here inside myself.  Here, I found the pure Child, born to myself.  Here I live, vulnerable, unrestricted, and fearless, full of laughter and the sweet tears of love. I’m unbeholden to the ways the world. It’s not up to me to fix any of it. I do see the reason. And I find the humor of it all. I thank God, yes and I do. True, I’m not inclined to be systematic nor bound to convention, or caught in the limits of the intellect.  This Child heart of mine is fully alive to the dynamic beauty of this mystery.  She’s agile, responsive and flexible to the events and circumstances along this road. It’s the push and pull of the road, the friction, going up against the rough stuff. Friction is needed to keep us going. Nothing is inert. No, it’s all moving, in perpetual motion — while yet, all the while, I am still here in this steady, immutable presence of my entire being. It’s all Love, no matter which way I go. Oh, I know, to see this is not by accident, or luck – no, I’ve seen something holy, something extraordinary, mysterious. I am quite aware of this morning light, this dawning of the first star pointing me to the divine wonder I am. I’m here at the edge of an exquisite dawn. All this beauty I see is the very beauty I be.    This makes it easy. In this temperance and peace I am caring for my world, without being toppled and pulled down by it. Like he said, this is dominion. Sweet joy of my heart – form and Light have become one. This is the third place.  I am this living, holy trinity, seeing and being all that I include. Follow the star.  At first...

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Blooms

Blooms

So, my nice little Mac lap-top stopped working. And for 4 days I was without the internet. I played music, and I painted. Oh, and yes, I cleaned the house. That was nice. Here is the painting I did. And I wrote a little sort of something. Here it is: I am impulsive and optimistic. That combination can be a bit dangerous you would think. But, has not been so for me. I get excited and leap, believing the best will be. Low and behold, the best always is– it’s not failed me yet. And I’ve got a lot of years into this. All circumstances, meetings, occurrences in our lives are always for something Good. You do have to look for it though. Sometimes it is hiding, sometimes it takes some time to find it. But you can find it, if you want to. Looking for Good is really just another way of finding the Truth. The Truth is the Pure Light beyond time and space and matter, but the Truth contains all space and matter, you and me. Finding the Truth is the reason we are all here in this world experience. We are here to uncover, or reveal for our self, the Goodness that is right here standing behind everything. There is Light and Beauty in all things. It is always here. Of course it is. Because this Living Light includes all that is. You can find it coming and going, either way, it remains Good. This Ineffable Isness that is being everything, does not have an opposite to Itself. Even the shadow leads to the tree. So shadow is Good. Well, I have been able to find Good in all things. If I can do it, any one can. And the wonders and the joy that transpire when we do this, are pure magic, absolutely divine. For me, it has become the only way. Now this steady stream of Love and Power sustains me. And so, that is what I will do, I let this stream pour out into my world. I can’t see much else to live for but to Love. Love, seems to me, to be the only reason I am here. So, there you go, I’ll do what I do – and I love...

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Scent of Jasmine

Scent of Jasmine

A soft warm and gentle breeze blows through this balmy night, immersing me in an air of nectarous scent wafting in the sweetest pleasure. I’m bathed in mystery’s exotic midnight breath filled with perfumed fragrance exhaled by the night-blooming jasmine outside my bedroom window. Heavenly blossoms of precious ambrosial ambiance awakened by the darkness tenderly lulling me softly to sleep, to dream the story of your...

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